Uhmm

Theres only a month left of school.
High school is fuckin over.
I don't really know how to feel about this. I don't think its even a toss up between sad or happy. I'm just panicking because of facing the real world.
After making past through the stressful college apps, and getting accepted, I would have thought I would just be relaxed but no, I've managed to make myself panic.
Its so surreal though, all these expectations, scenarios that I thought were going to play out through high school never happened. Ever. Bleh. High school went by really fast. But I don't regret anything that was thrown at me, or any person that I met. I wont remember what they exactly what they said but I sure as hell will remember how they made me feel. Would you believe me if I said that I still feel like a freshman? I've never felt anything else. Freshman and Senior year I would have to say have been my favorite years. The years that I will recall fondly. Sophomore year was a big mellow gush. I loath my Junior year memories. Nonetheless, through the ups and downs we made it. We're the next generation.
I graduated from San Joaquin Delta College, before high school. It still hasn't stopped feeling legit<3

In other news,
-I realized that I've always wanted to someone to just come to my house, and knock on the door and want to hang out with me for the hell of it. Because they were nearby or because they just wanted to(:
-I don't really like having my birthday in July. It's so late.
-My Franky essay ended up being 5 pages.

Night.